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THE JOURNEY BEGINS
I'm such an idiot.
I always do this.
Why I did I take the 580? I'm gonna be late. (I'm gonna be late... again)
God, I'm so tired of being late.
Maybe I should get off.
Of course, everyone is gonna let me get over, are you?
No! Of course not.
I'm always acquiescing to everyone.
I should just, cut in. Just... give me a moment of time, I'll do in about everything.
I'm late. I'm late!
Euh! You look like the walking dead.
You looked so pale. This just can't be how I'm supposed to look.
(I'm just bored) Why am I always so tired? (Why am I always so tired?)
You should go somewhere.
I should take a vacation.
Oh my God, it's him...
Please don't see me, I look awful.
Please don't look over here.
What am I doing?
It doesn't matter if he sees me.
I'm not in his league. That's for sure.
Why do I have to carry all my weight in my stomach?
Look like a "Buddha"...
and less Enlightened.
I need to start drinking red wine and eating cheese.
It's cancer. I just know it.
It's in my family, my dad, uncle...
I eat like a pig!
If he gets to know how I scared I am.
It's like I'm all by myself, I don't know where to go.
I'm not eating lunch today, just...
water.
If David brought donuts again?
Alright, I'm not eating a donut. I'm not eating a donut.
I love donuts...
I feel wonderful this morning.
I love living in the city.
and Scott... hmm...
I'm so excited to spend this weekend with him.
Look at you...
happy people are sooo annoying.
Hello.
Hey, Scott, I was just thinking about you!
Hey, you dropped this...
I AM WILLING TO CHANGE
I am willing to release my old patterns and negative beliefs.
The power that created me has given me the power to create my new life.
I choose positive, fulfilling new thoughts.
I begin anew,
right here,
right now.
All of us are on a journey...
whether we know it or not.
We are all on a journey...
of learning to express our full potential in this world.
Most of us have learned to view our thoughts as a reflection of the outside world...
a reflection of what is happening *to* us.
But what if that's not how the universe works?
What if, with every thought you think...
you are actually creating your present...
and your future.
What if you are creating the story of your life...
with the very thought you are thinking...
now!
And perhaps if we are willing to change the way we think...
wonderous new possibilities will begin to reveal themselves to us...
and our lives would move in a whole new direction.
It all starts...
with taking the first step.
YOU CAN HEAL YOUR LIFE
Every thought we think and every word we speak...
is creating our future.
It is as though our thoughts go out into the universe...
and are accepted, and brought back to us as experience.
You become what you're think about...
whether you want it or not.
The thought that you are thinking,
is vibrational in nature, and therefore attractive in nature.
So...
when you care enough
to take the time to change it,
from what you were terming negative to positive.
You have shifted your point of attraction.
Nothing is more important than understanding that.
And if you just...
did that one simple thing, you know...
of spotting the limitations and the limitations in your thinking
and trading those in for positive new thoughts in that area.
It will eventually lead you to all the other stuff. It will lead you through.
And how will our lives be different, if we...
we can cut through all of the static...
and simply choose in our lives...
what we would like, each moment of each day,
or our relationships, or our abundance, or our careers
or the peace in our family to look like.
What would our lives look like if we could do that?
We were so busy on the cell phone.
We're text messaging somebody.
We're on the computer. We're on the Internet.
We're watching soap operas. Once again, we are always looking outside of us.
People don't realize their greatest potential...
because they think it's from an outside source...
when it's so divinely ordained within them.
Now, it's how do you turn that around?
It starts with thinking differently.
You can be fully supported by the universe...
by following your dreams, and your passions,
and your inner guidance.
Your willingness to contemplate yourself...
as a person who is capable of attracting into your life what you want...
having the kind of relationships that you want...
being able to have abundance where, you know, scarcity always exists.
All you have to do is begin the process...
by being willing to contemplate the presence of that in your life.
I started to be introduced to...
looking at the world in a different way...
for example, through Louise's book "You Can Heal Your Life"...
which is very influential to me, early on.
When I thought, "Wow, there's something about the way I think...
that may be influencing what's happening in my life."
We now know that...
we can rewire our patterns...
in our brain, with cognitive-behavioral therapy affirmations.
It changes the way our brains are wired and they 'light up' differently.
So, it's not just this fluff,
'woo-woo' stuff with purple.
But it really has...
biochemical, neurochemical...
neuro-pharmacological effects...
just as effective...
if not more effective...
than Prozac, Zoloft...
you know, whatever else you have.
So, Louise Hay...
former model, former therapist...
discovered something...
by observation...
that science supports decades later.
There is not one person here...
that cannot improve the quality of their life.
I constantly do it.
What I really asked for is,
"How can I increase my understanding?"
Because the more I understand...
about how life works...
and how thought works...
the better my life gets.
I have just entered...
my eighth decade...
and wonderful, wonderful things are unfolding before me.
It's extraordinary.
And I have made a decision...
that this decade...
is going to be the best decade of my life!
My life, as far as I know...
was very good until I was 18 months old...
and then everything hit the fan.
My parents got divorced...
and I was put out into a foster home.
and then later I came back with my mother...
and I was about 5 years old when she remarried.
And she remarried what turned out to be a 'brutalizer'.
We didn't know that, at that time.
So, the next 10 years of my life were very, very challenging.
There was a lot of physical abuse...
and sexual abuse.
I grew up in a family where really, you were taught...
that you were no good, you were worthless, nobody loved you, and nobody would love you.
And when you have that belief, then...
life gives you those experiences.
I was raped by a neighbor at one point...
and the man got 16 years for it.
There was another neighbor that was after me.
This was all when I was very little.
And then about the time I became a teenager...
my stepfather stopped beating me...
and started to have sex with me.
and that was much harder for me to take...
So I left home...
at 15.
I knew nothing...
I had no social skills whatsoever...
but I was out of the house.
I was starved for love...
and anyone who would be nice to me, I went to bed with.
And so within a year,
I had a baby, and...
I couldn't take care of the baby, I couldn't take care of me!
But I found the child a really good home.
A couple who wanted a baby very much...
and couldn't have one.
And so I lived with them for the last 2 months...
and I had it in their name at the hospital...
then after five days, I left.
And what I did was I went back to my home...
I got my mother...
and I said, "You do not have to take this any longer...
you're getting outta here!"
And we both left.
We were together for almost a year...
and then I said to myself,
"She's ok, she's fine now. She's in good shape."
and I took off.
Then I went to Chicago for 3 weeks...
and stayed 5 years.
Then I went to New York for 3 weeks...
and I stayed 30 years.
And...
bumbled through life, doing the best I could...
with the understanding and knowledge that I had,
which was really nothing.
I started working out in dime-stores and things like that.
And then when I...
hit New York...
life sort of changed for me...
and I became a model...
a showroom model.
And I had no education, so it was a very good job for me...
because I couldn't be a secretary or anything like that.
And I did that for many years.
I married an upper-class Englishman...
which was a very nice experience.
And I stopped modeling at the time...
and we had 18 rather wonderful years together.
And I learned a lot about life...
and it was like my social training...
because I had no social skills at all.
And by the time we were parting, I had learned a lot.
But when the divorce came...
it made me feel very much, like so many women feel,
that I was a total failure and I couldn't do it right...
and everything was wrong again.
And...
it was about 5 years later...
that I discovered this group called the "Church of Religious Science."
which was where I heard...
if you change your thinking, you can change your life.
And that is where my life really began to change.
We will have all these speakers.
We'll all going to say the same things really...
but we are going to do it in slightly different ways.
And we want, everyone wants to hear things differently.
Just because I say something, some of you will get it...
some of you will say, "What is that woman talking about?"
And so another teacher, or three or six, or twelve...
can say the same thing that I'm saying in different words.
And you go, "Oh, that's brilliant. Never heard that before!"
WE ARE ALL ON A JOURNEY
I was living like a lot of people do...
fairly unconsciously...
but not aware of my unconsciousness.
You know, just kind of going through life and often feeling
as though life was happening to me...
that I was a victim to what was going on in my life.
I was really like living in a comfortably numb place.
You know, there wasn't a depth of meaning in my life...
and I knew something was missing but I couldn't name it.
We had a tax business.
I, as a young girl, started apprenticing with my dad when I was 16.
He had a business in our home and we moved it out to a building.
And in my early 20s, our business burnt to the ground.
One morning, I got a phone call at 6 am...
and my mother called to say that the building was on fire.
And when I got there, there were fire trucks, and police and news reporters and...
everything that meant anything to me was in that office.
And I had a nice front office with a glass front...
that I could look into, and now, everything was burning.
When I was 12, I was brought to Boston...
to essentially have my spine completely fused.
And I remember looking up saying, "I'm going to be a doctor and scientist some day."
And so I became a pre-med at an early age.
So after working as pre-med, I started falling asleep a lot...
up to 17 hours a day.
They gave me a medicine and...
the medicine started knocking out my bone marrow...
and there wasn't another medicine that would help.
And so I was forced to look for other things.
I went to a bookstore in Boston...
and I looked up the shelf and there was this book called "You Can Heal Your Life" by Louise Hay.
And you know, there were these things called affirmations...
that if you did, I mean, you were supposed to get, you can heal your life, was the whole point.
I did reps, just like you do in the gym.
Instead of lifting barbells, or whatever you...
I lifted, "I love myself just the way I am."
10 times.
And...
after 3 months, I stopped falling asleep...
and I was able to go to medical school,
which was absolutely lovely.
I myself had terrible migraine headaches.
Once a month, twice a month, whatever.
I been worked up in a Boston hospital a week there...
with all kinds of testing, they never knew what it was.
At the age of 19...
I had to do this English paper...
and like most "migraine-ist personalities",
I needed to know what it was they wanted of me...
and I couldn't figure it out.
When I came out of the library...
not knowing how to get an 'A' in the course...
I temporarily thought...
maybe I should just throw myself in front of a car.
It would be easier than this.
I lived in an orphanage until I was 10...
and a series of foster homes.
The circumstances at that time were such that...
my father had walked out on his family...
and I was born in the Depression,
and my mother working as a candy girl...
in Detroit, on the east side of Detroit,
earning $17 a week.
I remembered a girl named Martha came...
and they were dropping her off, for basically the same reasons that we were dropped off there.
And they said, "Go find Wayne." and I came and I started talking to Martha.
And she was crying and she was all upset, and she was sad.
I was trying to convince her that she didn't have to be sad.
I remembered saying to her, "This is a great place, there is no parents here.
You could do pretty much anything that you want.
I mean, you got a lot of freedom and we're gonna have a great time...
and all you have to do is change the way you think."
And it goes from being a miserable experience..
or a tough experience, or a hard experience...
to one that you can do anything that you want with.
In that moment, when I watched the building burned...
I wasn't thinking...
about, you know...
all of the work that was piled up on my desk.
I was thinking about my father standing next to me.
I was thinking, "Thank you God, that there was no one in the building."
And I was also a little too upset about...
some of the physical items that I was losing in my office.
I had more of a relationship with my adding machine than some of the people in my life
because of how busy I was.
The interesting thing was, this is where the soul is so...
wonderfully wise and resilient.
I remember watching this fire and just being devastated by it...
on one hand, but there was this little voice that said,
"This is happening for a reason...
you don't know why right now...
and it looks horrible, but there is actually something wonderful
that is going to come from this. Stay awake."
So I was going to throw away this intuition, throw away these affirmations stuff...
because it was something that I needed to get to be, kind of 'normal'.
I got to my sophomore year and...
I started...
really hitting the wall. I was doing an M.D. and a Ph.D.
So, I started blowing disks and stuff and I couldn't end up going to the 'intellectual' career that I wanted to.
Being a neurosurgeon, because you can't stand up.
So I chose psychiatry...
because I could sit down. And I hated it. It was boring.
But I learned, very interesting.
All roads lead back...
to spirituality and intuition.
I go back to my dorm, I called my parents...
and I say, "I hate it here,
this isn't working for me."
And my father says,
"Quit...
so quit...
you can come home."
And I changed my mind.
And in that moment...
I changed...
the migraine headaches.
I maybe had 3 or 4 the rest of my whole life...
because I changed this pattern.
And my perception was, "You must do this and...
I've really been driven...
my whole life...
to get it right."
And get it right though, in a way that, the culture...
and in my case, the practice of medicine says is right.
But here's the problem...
most of what I was taught...
in medicine...
about what causes disease...
is not the truth.
I cured my migraine headaches...
not with Imitrex...
not with Advil.
I cured them with a change of perception.
Some people think that change has to be shocking...
like diving into a cold pool.
But it can be as simple and easy as letting go...
of the limiting beliefs you're holding on to.
I can't change.
I'm never gonna feel healthy.
(I can't handle how my file works.) I can't help stop feeling tired.
I can't be happy.
I can't stop wanting things that I don't have. I can't change. I can't!
You can begin your journey wherever you are...
whenever you want.
You may be starting your journey from a mansion...
or a homeless shelter.
Wherever you begin...
the gateways to wisdom and knowledge...
are *always* open.
And the first step can be as simple as...
changing the thought...
from "I can't"...
to...
"I can!"
"I can do it!"
When you get it...
that you have...
so much more control over your life than you thought you did...
or control over your experience of your life,
if not the events of your life.
There is this sense that is...
so playful...
and so joyous.
And it begin...
with changing the way you think.
THE INTERNAL LANDSCAPE OF CHANGE
Life as you know it can change...
in an instant.
Everything you call God...
can disappear before your eyes.
And you know it's not until you have a crisis like that...
that you're suddenly, you come face-to-face with what it is that really matters in the world.
So it is a wonderful thing...
when you bump up against something that feels uncomfortable.
Because it's this opportunity to now...
feel the discomfort of it and work it into a place of greater comfort.
That's how you get rid of those obstacles.
That's how you let yourself flow...
in the way that you want to.
Okay...
I can do this...
I *can* do it, I can change...
I can make my life better.
I'm scared...
but I want to change...
I do!
I'm gonna stick with this, and I'm gonna try and...
no, no...
I *am* going to think more positive thoughts.
Like...
um...
"I'm happy."
"I...
am...
happy."
Aye! This is not gonna be easy.
The universe is not responding to your words...
but your words...
are reflective of how you feel.
And how you feel...
is reflective of the vibration that you are offering.
And the vibration that you are offering...
does equal to your point of attraction.
So paying attention to what you say...
is a very powerful tool...
for understanding what your point of attraction is.
It was on a...
on a tour of Australia...
and...
it was one of the first conversations we ever had.
And so I was trying to rush her around, and no one should rush Louise around.
She is "right-time-right-space,
all-in-its-good-time"...
type of person.
And I said, "Louise, let's do this and let's kill two birds with one stone."
And Louise looked at me, horrified and said,
"Why would you want to kill two birds?"
She always walks her talk.
And everyone around her...
seems to pick up on that.
From that moment on...
I really was careful...
in what I say.
I stopped saying, "I can't stand this!"
"That person's a pain-in-the-neck!"
or...
"I'm hopeless."
If you can really accept the fact...
that every time you think a thought...
and every time you speak a word...
you are literally painting your future...
or whatever you want to call it...
you are creating...
and you're creating your own life!
One of the gifts of affirmations...
the using of affirmations over the years...
it has allowed me to experience...
living in a state of abundance.
Living in a state of belief that all that I need will come to me when I need it.
Living in a state...
of recognition that all that really does matter is love.
And it's because of using affirmations over the years...
I find that...
I'm now more concerned with life as an energetic force.
Living in an energetic state of those affirmations...
instead of the actual words.
To begin, you start by, what we call, Doing Affirmations...
and that is making positive statements about your life.
And you do them deliberately...
you might do them in the morning, you might do them at noon, you might do them at night.
And as you start to do them...
things will begin to change.
Maybe on a very small level.
I call it 'getting the green lights and the parking places'.
The affirmations...
get you into that space where you are ready to recognize...
the healer that you need, recognize the teacher that you need...
recognize the philosophy that will work best for you.
Doing a affirmation is either writing it down...
writing it on a wall or the mirror...
or just saying it.
My body now restores itself to its natural state of good health.
I'm strong, fit and vibrant all the time every day...
I'm in the flow for my work and play.
My partner for life is rife today and wealth is here to stay.
My income is constantly increasing.
I'm infinite...
I'm immortal...
I'm universal.
I'm infinite...
I'm immortal...
I'm universal.
I do the work I love.
I work within four people...
I really like...
and I'm earning good money.
Now, you don't have to have a specific job...
but under that banner, a lot of good could come into your life.
I am...
passionate about life.
I love myself.
I am well!
And then, I bet you I say it 300 or 400 times a day...
to get over the fear of having cancer.
and...
I believe that, not only saying it...
but actually believing it.
The affirmations are just the starting point.
That's like going, "Ok, here's where the goal is."
What really give those affirmations power is the emotions we put behind it.
So what's interesting thing is...
you start out the journey going,...
"Okay, let me start here. Step one is, "What's the affirmation?"...
Step two is...
"How can I generate the emotional power behind that affirmation?"
And a lot of that comes from taking actions to support that affirmation.
That's how you begin to step into that state.
And then as you step into that state...
you take actions and you put the emotional power behind those affirmations
they begin to manifest themselves, in your life.
It's gotta get anchored into your...
not only your mind...
but in your spirit.
And you have to believe it.
and...
when you first doing it, it doesn't... it feels...
it feels fake.
It feels silly.
But after a while...
you start to realize, "YEAH!"
You know...
That's right!!! YEAH!!!
What I like people to do,
is to stand in front of a mirror...
and do their affirmations.
Because there is something very powerful about...
looking in your own eyes...
and accepting yourself.
Or noticing that you reject yourself...
when you're saying something positive about yourself.
Driving to work when I first read Louise... I used to...
she said, "You know that you should...
20,000 times a day, or every time you have a negative thought...
just...
'I love and approve of myself.'"
You know, just replace it with that.
For the longest time I'd...
"I love and...
I love and..."
I couldn't think of the other word.
It was like, why can't I remember such a simple word?
It's like planting a seed in the ground.
It's not necessarily true at the moment...
but it is something you want to have be true.
So you put the seed in...
and you expect it to grow.
You don't wait for two days and then...
dig in the earth and say, "What's happening?! What's happening?!"
You expect that thing to grow because you know there is a law and a process.
And the seed will grow if it is in the right soil...
and it has the right amount of moisture.
Many people are finding out about how literal this language is...
in very interesting ways.
I hear people say that...
they want a perfect relationship...
or they want abundance in their lives.
And they say it with an air, as if...
they have just put the manifestation out there and they are going to get it pretty quickly.
And then I see them a year later, and it still hasn't happened...
and a couple years later or so, ... hasn't happened.
The feel is literal.
The divine matix is literal.
So when you say, "I want this to happen in my life."
The feel says, "Ok...
and I'll let you 'want'...
and 'want'...
and 'want'..."
Because there's no outcome.
It is an open-ended proposition.
It is like a computer.
If you this gorgeous computer put in front of you...
and you don't know what to do with it...
it's a piece of junk!
But if you learn the language of the computer...
miracles happen.
I HAVE UNLIMITED POTENTIAL
When I left corporations...
early 1990s...
I found myself in the high deserts of northern New Mexico...
where I live today.
I'm in a beautiful part of the world.
And during that time...
it was one of the worst drought in recorded history...
in the American desert Southwest.
And a native friend called me one day...
and he said, "Gregg, would you like to join me...
at a place..."
and I love this language,
he said, "... a place where 'the skin between the worlds'...
is really thin...
to pray rain."
And he didn't have to ask me twice, I said, "You bet!"
So we met at an agreed location...
we hiked 135,000 acres...
of the most beautiful high desert sage.
We came to...
a stone circle...
that had been there for so long,
he didn't even know who had placed the stones there before him.
And I wasn't prepared for what I saw...
because my friend, David...
took his old work shoes off...
he put his naked feet inside of this circle.
He closed his eyes...
and the first thing he did was he honored all of his ancestors.
He literally said the words,
"All my ancestors...
all my ancestors...
are with me now... are with me now."
About 20 seconds later...
he looked at me and said,
"I'm hungry. Wanna go get a bite to eat?"
I said, "Well.., well sure...
but I said, "I thought you were gonna pray for rain."
And he looked at me, and he said,
"No...
if I prayed *for* rain...
rain could never happen...
because the moment we pray *for* something to occur...
we just implied, we have acknowledged it's not there now...
and we may be empowering the very conditions that we'd like to change."
And I said, "If you didn't just pray for rain in those 20 seconds, what did you do?"
And he said, "When I closed my eyes...
I felt the feeling...
of what it feels like to stand...
with my feet...
naked in the mud in our pueblo village...
and the mud is there because there has been so much rain."
And he said, "I smelled the smells...
of what it smells like, when the rain falls off the earthern walls of our pueblo village...
and I felt the feeling of what it feels like to run through...
through the fields of corn...
and the corn is there and it's so high...
because there has been so much rain."
He said, "I gave thanks of gratitude and appreciation...
of the rain that has already happened."
When you speak an affirmation...
even though at first when you speak the affirmation, you may not believe it...
in time...
as you speak it...
you come into the 'allowing' of it.
And of course there many people...
speaking affirmations...
who are not receiving what they are speaking.
Because...
they are using words...
and wanting the words to make it so.
But the universe does not respond to your words.
The universe responds to your vibration.
And your emotion indicate what your vibrations is.
Affirmations....
are magnified...
if we use them....
in our dream state.
Because...
at that moment...
the ego is asleep...
the logical mind is resting...
and therefore you have a...
perfect opportunity...
to program...
your future,
program...
your mind with these positive affirmations.
Our dreams...
are there to resolve conflicts...
between the conscious and the unconscious...
and they're there to regulate our moods.
But what if you went to sleep...
believing that you're *always* well?
You're safe.
Everything will appear at the right time when it's supposed to.
And I think that would be very good if you all decided that too...
that the decade you are in at the moment...
is the best decade of your lives so far.
If I can do it, you can do it!
I was a high school drop-out...
I've never studied anything...
suddenly, became fascinated with this idea,
that "If I could change my thinking, I could change my life."
And I started to study...
and I couldn't stop.
I did lots of classes, lots of books,
all sorts of things...
so I could begin to understand how this works.
And at the end of three years...
I was eligible to become...
what they called...
in the church, a "licensed practitioner"...
which gave me the opportunity to work one-on-one with other people.
And...
that's I think, when the changes really started to happen...
because I was sort of began to teach other people...
how to do this...
and how to change their thinking...
so that they could change their lives.
People were getting good results working with me.
And then I started teaching classes...
and...
those turned out very well.
And the next thing I knew I was doing weekend workshops for 350 people.
So one of the things...
I began to really notice...
was "what people said", "how they said it", and what was wrong in their bodies.
And I started to put things together.
And I really trained my mind to *listen* to what people said.
I put a list together...
for my own use...
with clients and I alphabetized it...
so if you came in with a problem
I could look it up quickly and see what I had written about it.
And I showed it to a friend...
in class...
and she said to me, "Oh Louise, what a great idea!"
"Why don't you make a little book out of it?"
And I went, "Oh... really...?"
"A book?"
So my first little book was done in 1976...
that was "Heal Your Body:"
and that was "The Mental Patterns
For the Physical Ailments In The Bodies
And How To Make Changes."
I really believed that the 'big boys', as I called them...
would not published the book.
And if they did...
they probably would want to change it.
Because my ideas at that time...
were very radical,
"Your thinking can change your life."
And I want to say it the way I want to say it.
I didn't want a word changed...
because I knew what I was doing.
So I printed the book myself.
So I went to the church printer...
because I didn't know where else to go...
and I had this little 12-page pamphlet put together.
And I remembered taking to my teacher...
and showing it to him...
and he said, "Oh Louise, isn't that sweet! What a nice thing you've done."
"How many did you have printed? 200?"
And I said, "No, 5,000."
And he went, "You're crazy!
You'll never sell that thing."
But two years later...
I had. I sold all 5,000.
I sent a free copy to every metaphysical church that I could knew of...
and an order form...
and...
many of them took it.
And... that was my first little book.
I read her little book and I said, "This would never work for me."
But I came home, determined to try it.
At the time I was being treated for fibromyalgia...
and chronic fatigue.
I was self-employed, my energy levels was so low...
I was barely putting in 20 hours a week.
Completely ignoring my children...
and my responsibilities.
And I started her affirmations,
"My body now restores itself to its natural state of good health."
And I saw the difference in a week.
I said it all the time...
and I started doing her mirror work.
I would go to the mirror...
and though I didn't feel it, the words stuck in my throat...
I would look at the mirror and I would say,
"I love you very much, Jackie."
"You're perfect exactly the way you are."
Alright...
this is going well.
I have all the power...
and nothing can stop me and...
I feel healthy and...
I'm breathing and...
the air feels really good and...
I'm accepting that I am a part of the universe and...
gives me exactly what I asked for.
Ok, so I totally tripped!
Alright...
it was a positive trip.
CHALLENGES ALONG THE PATH
In the moments of deepest dispair...
there's actually humor always.
Humor lifts us up to God...
it lightens up every situation.
But, just before you get there...
there's usually this time of...
"pain-filled joy"...
or "joy-filled pain."
where you might have to break down with some deep sobs.
When someone's in trouble...
I think of them just like someone who has come out of a movie...
a scary movie, and they're crying.
Their tears are real, their fear is real.
But what they saw, that caused the fear is not real. It's a movie.
So what I'll do is I offer some suggestions...
about...
ways to reframe their situation...
or find a blessing in a seeming problem.
And yes, there are challenges in life and we all go through...
and there's no shame with that.
But it's what you do with the challenges, that counts.
Now I know when so-called "negative" things happen...
that they're really positive things.
And that, what I need to do is focus on the positive outcome...
and then stay course, and then so shall I have that experience.
The way that you retrain yourself is to shift from...
having a fear to...
having a curiosity.
Substitute the word 'curiosity' for the word 'fear'.
Because a lot of us, when we start doing those things to honor our soul...
or to express our creativity...
those are really vulnerable acts.
You know, the things we intend, or that we affirm for our lives...
are those things that are deeply important to our soul...
and so they are vulnerable.
And too often, we turn to people...
who just *squash* them!
You know, or who tell you why it isn't going to work...
or why that's a crazy affirmation...
or that's a crazy intention.
That's called 'going to the hardware store for milk'.
You want to go to...
the people who are really going to hold your hand on the journey...
and say, "Hey, I'm right there with you."
I AM SAFE; IT'S ONLY CHANGE
Awareness is the first step in healing or changing.
When you facing challenges on the journey...
it's tempting to turn back...
or to blame somebody for the situation.
The healing healthy attitude though...
is to think of any external challenge as simply a reflection...
of your own internal RESISTANCE TO CHANGE.
I'm sure everyone I know thinks I'm totally nuts...
and they're right. - - - - - - - - - ASSUMPTIONS
I'll never make it through this.
I'll probably flake out, like I always do.
Besides, this isn't even doing any good anyway.
Before the 15th and 16th centuries...
all of the ships were made out of wood.
Not because iron wasn't available...
and steel wasn't available...
but because...
there was a belief that...
wood floated.
So therefore you had to make ships out of things that floated.
And then someone came along and said that it has absolutely nothing to do...
with what things were made out of.
It has to do with the amount of water that is being dispersed.
That's what determines whether something will float or not.
And I think about that all the time...
because it's in the contemplation of what you desire...
that you create what it is that you want to have for yourself.
The law of flotation...
was not discovered by the contemplation of the sinking of things.
BELIEFS
I mean come on, I'm not one of these self-help people.
I don't believe in crystals, and white light and...
divine feminine and...
angels and source energy.
I mean, what is that?
Let's be real. This is obviously wishful thinking.
We tend to live our lives based on what we believe...
about ourselves, our world,
our capabilities, and our limits.
Where do those beliefs come from?
More often than not, they come from what other people have told us...
History, science, religion,
culture, family.
What if they are wrong?
THEM Every one of these people...
telling me what to do. I mean, please...
if it weren't for my mom...
I'd at least have a chance.
I mean, c'mon, where was Louise Hay when I was growing up?
I had no one to show me the way to be.
And my dad...
is no Wayne Dyer.
I can tell you that much.
Anything you complain about...
repetitively...
is something that you have an unconscious intention to produce.
SELF CONCEPTS
And now...
I'm just too old to change my life.
That's it!
Too old.
Lazy.
Short, wasted.
I should have tried to be positive years ago.
I think it really starts with realizing that you don't love yourself.
That most people don't.
Most people feel they're not good enough, they haven't done it right...
they won't do it right, there will never be enough...
and they are definitely not loveable.
And when we come from that space...
it's very hard to create things for ourselves that are really good.
DENIAL
Things weren't so bad before.
There's nothing wrong with me.
I'm fine, I'm fine the way I am.
Everything was fine the way it was.
And now I'm... here! I should have just stayed the same.
Now everything's messed up and confused.
Well, at least I know what to expect here.
It may not be the best, but at least I know how to handle this.
And what's in the future might be worse, so I better not...
try and go out there and change things. What if I fail?
What if I don't succeed?
DELAYING TACTICS
I should just go back. I don't have time for this. I mean I have so much to do.
I just... I'll come back later. I do it later.
I have my job. I have all these important things.
And I gotta go. I just... I have to go.
A lot of times...
we're missing information about what the next step might be...
in terms of the Action Equation of: Affirmations + Actions = Miracles.
A lot of times, we're missing information about...
what to do, how to take action,
but we called it something else like, "I must be afraid, that's why I'm stuck."
What if I lose my friends and family doing this 'stuff'?
FEAR
People are going to think I'm crazy.
Or going to find out that I'm involved in some weird...
'psychological thing' and, they are all gonna laugh at me. (I just wanna go home.)
This isn't right. It doesn't feel right.
Where am I?
We have been conditioned to feel the feelings of the things that we *don't* want in life...
and that we're afraid of.
We wake up in the morning, and we see the 6 o'clock news.
Then we go through our day saying, "Oh, I hope I'm not going to see that today."
or "I hope it's not around the corner."
Where do we learn to feel the things that we don't want...
rather than things that we choose to have.
If you can just remember that...
any time...
something feels uncomfortable...
just stop where you are, and acknowledge that...
it's just a matter of reaching for better feeling thoughts.
Reaching for a feeling of relief...
works the resistance out of everything.
A client of mine in the neighboring state called me up...
and he was really, really depressed...
and suicidal.
I asked him...
if during the course of the day...
he had seen anything...
that he could do...
that would be a positive contribution to somebody.
And he thought about it for a long time.
And he said, "Well...
there's an elderly lady that lives in the apartment below me...
when I came home today, I saw that the area in front of her apartment...
was dirty and needed sweeping."
And I said, "Okay...
don't even ring her doorbell, or anything like that...
just take your broom down there...
I stay on the phone, right now.
Go down, with your broom, and clean that area...
I'll wait."
So he was gone, for 10 or 15 minutes.
Finally he came back...
and it was like a different person.
You know, he had...
made this thing happened.
He had gotten out of himself enough to make a contribution...
and that started this flow of positive energy.
He was completely different...
when I heard his voice come back on the line.
And so, that kind of thing lets me know that it's possible...
to live your life that way. That it's possible to live your life kind of on the...
contribution side and let it be okay to receive back also.
What's wrong with me?
What am I not doing right?
I'm doing the inner work.
Where is the reward?
I keep thinking positive things, I keep being specific...
and I'm not moving forward.
Fine.
Maybe I won't move forward at all.
I'll just sit here...
and not move at all.
How do you like that?
Who am I talking to anyway?
TESTING THE DEPTH OF YOUR COMMITMENT
I was...
diagnosed with cancer.
And it was vaginal cancer.
And when you look back at my childhood...
with the rapes and all the other childhood abuse...
and you realized that one of the mental causes for cancer...
is deep resentment.
Deep resentment that is held very strong...
till it literally eats away in the body.
So where would I put my cancer?
So, I remember being very terrified, like anybody would.
And I called my teacher...
and I said, "Eric, they said I have cancer."
And the first thing he said to me is, "Who is 'they'?" and I said, "The doctors."
And he said,
"Louise, you could not have done all this work on yourself to die of cancer...
Now let's take a positive approach."
And I clung to that.
It was a lifeline for me.
And I did things I hadn't done before.
I went from being a junk food person to
doing nutritional work...
and detoxifying my body...
and I was detoxifying my mind...
and I did a lot of things.
I had tools to work with.
And I said to myself,
"You're being given an opportunity to practise what you're teaching...
you're telling people that they can heal *anything*...
if they're willing to do the work...
and now it's your turn."
I remembered working with the therapist, banging pillows and you know, getting anger out and all that stuff.
But I think that the work I did at that time, that was the most important for me...
was to do forgiveness.
And I began to...
investigate the childhoods of my parents...
and when I finally discovered their stories...
I could understand where they were coming from.
There were, you know, there were just...
horrendous things on both sides, all sides.
So...
how could they know how to treat a little child...
when they weren't treated that well themselves?
So as I began to do the forgiveness work...
and the therapy, and the nutrition and everything.
Within six months...
I was able to get the medical establishment to agree with what I already knew inside...
that I no longer had cancer.
And when that happened...
I knew...
that anything could be healed.
I knew because I had done it myself.
And all the other stuff helped...
but I knew that with all the affirmations and all the stuff I was doing.
So that gave me an extraordinarily strong belief.
And when you have a strong belief, you can do anything.
I was diagnosed with a condition inside of my body...
where a doctor told me...
that something was growing, a cancerous tumor that shouldn't be there.
And I had gone, I trusted the medical system...
because that's our culture, that's the way we were raised.
And there's a part of us that says,
"Even if I go the holistic route...
I'm going to let the medical person tell me what's going on, just for that validation.
So it was my opportunity to put into practice everything that I had ever learned.
And rather than concentrating on something that should not be in my body...
I began...
feeling...
that my body was...
vital and healthy...
rather than focusing on making something change.
However...
through the influence of family and friends...
I underwent a medical procedure anyway.
I went into the operating room...
I was anesthetized.
And the next thing I remember, I woke up...
and there was a doctor, looking to me and he said,
"What are you doing here?"
"There's nothing there."
All I had done...
were the practices and the principles that...
I had traveled halfway round the world to learn...
and I employed it in my own life.
And it worked in that moment.
I have the photograph showing there's nothing in my body.
I was anesthetized and they did an exploratory for no reason at all.
Because of that, I can speak with conviction.
I can look anyone...
a scientist...
a doubting audience member...
and I can look them in the eye with conviction...
and say, "This is what I know to be true in my life...
that there is a power...
inside of your body."
The ancients say that it's the most powerful force in the universe.
The philosopher, Neville...
early in the 20th century...
said that, "There is a power inside of every human...
against which no earthly force is of the slightest consequence."
I HAVE UNLIMITED POTENTIAL
I did a whole bunch of research...
on cancer.
I wanted to know who had beaten cancer, and what was the common denominator.
So I did a lot of reading...
and I discovered that the common denominator was...
everyone, no matter what treatment that they chose...
they were well because they changed the way they thought.
I knew that opening myself up physically to the surgeon's knife...
was an adjunct to true healing...
and that I needed really to open spiritually.
Your body is not your enemy, which of course, I think anyone who's first experiencing a disease or pain.
I think we're taught that, "Why is my body doing this to me?"
Instead of, "Why? (And is my...) Why am I going through this experience?"
And it had sort of let me shift my thinking to...
you know, I need to love my body through this.
I am thankful that I actually got cancer...
because I needed a big wake-up call.
I was the type of person that needed almost to you know, to 'get-hit-between-the-eyes'.
I'm in remission, and I feel wonderful and I've never felt better about myself.
I still walk around daily and I use that affirmation that she had for cancer, it's the...
"I lovingly forgive and release everything in my past.
I choose to fill my world with joy. I love and accept myself."
It was...
life-changing.
It was...
one of these things where...
not only was I grateful for my illness...
but in the end, much healthier than I had been before.
MY HEALING IS ALREADY IN PROGRESS
There is this interesting thing that happens when somebody gets it...
really downloads...
a more positive way of thinking.
They get hormonal balancing, for one thing.
We know that when somebody is thinking with their heart...
like they see a puppy or a sleeping baby...
and they go, "Aww...".
Your DHEA levels rise...
which begins to balance your hormones.
But something else really more important happens.
And that is, the beat-to-beat variability of the heart normalizes...
and you get into this...
wave pattern that you can see...
on a heart-rate monitor...
that actually begins to balance the entire body.
Given that the heart is a huge electromagnet...
that in fact trains the rest of the body.
It's not a thinking process.
Thoughts are important.
The ancients made a distinction between thoughts, and feelings and emotions.
And it's the feelings that are centered in our heart...
but there is an effect from there, that changes the electric and magnetic fields...
in our heart.
And that those fields literally change the stuff that our world is made of...
around our bodies.
And what the science now is showing...
is that when you can change the field...
that the atom is in, you change the atom.
And we are made of those atoms.
So we have feelings in our hearts...
we are changing the field...
that connects the stuff everything is made of...
and we literally are altering our physical reality...
in a way that sounds miraculous.
So, this thought, or this state of deep relaxation...
or whatever it is, that 'enlightens' you...
actually results in a...
decrease in stress hormones...
a normalization of blood sugar...
decreasing of...
blood pressure...
and a relaxation of all smooth muscles.
It is in fact, a balance...
of the parasympathetic and sympathetic nervous system.
Parasympathetic is the 'brake'...
and the sympathetic is the 'gas'.
And most people in this culture...
have the 'gas' on, all the time, with an occasional 'brake'...
so you're going round, like this.
When both are in balance...
you can work so much more efficiently and so much longer...
because you've got this beautiful Yin-Yang balance.
The Sanskrit traditions...
have a 7-energy centers or 7 chakras system that they work with.
And they say that the upper 3 are related to what we call...
thought or logic processes.
So when we think about something, we picture in our mind...
that perfect relationship or peace between nations.
But we can only invite it into our lives...
when we breathe the power of emotion into that thought.
The emotion comes from the lower 3 of those creative centers in our bodies.
So when we breathe the power of emotion into our thought...
we imbue that thought with life.
And those two energies meet in the one center that...
is not accounted for yet in our model and it's in our heart.
You look at these books by Beck...
all these fathers of cognitive-behavioral therapy, if you open them up...
and the rewiring patterns that they give...
for obsessive-compulsive personality disorder...
or you know, selfishness or narcissistic personalities, all these...
or even just normal people who are a little messed-up...
was, "I love myself just the way I am."
So in my Ph.D....
and in my psychiatric residency...
and I'm now a neuropsychiatrist, and I work in the field of intuition...
I learned the biochemistry...
of how someone rewires their thought patterns...
from "I get one-health-problem- after-another" to...
"I love myself just the way I am"...
"I am completely loveable."
So I'll be forever indebted to Louise Hay...
what she did to me personally...
because she woke me up...
and literally what she has done as a revolutionary...
for, from my perspective, modern medicine.
I seemed to have been a born teacher...
and I gathered a lot of people to me, I was doing workshops and classes.
And when the second book came out...
it was slow to start with.
And then...
the whole AIDS crisis struck...
and for some reason life said,
"You're going to be in it!"
I didn't know anything about AIDS...
nobody knew anything about AIDS...
but I remember one day somebody called me up and said,
"Louise, could you start a group for people with AIDS?"
And I said, "Well... I... I don't know?"
you know, "I don't know?"
I said, "Alright, let's meet."
So, we go out together, one night...
there were 6 men in my living room.
We sat down and I said, "I don't know what we are going to do," because nobody knows anything about this disease...
but we are going to do what I've always done.
We're going to work on dissolving resentment, we're going to work on forgiveness...
we're going to work on loving ourselves.
And we are not going to play "ain't-it-awful"...
we're not going to sit here and talk about how awful it is."
I said, "We're going to take a positive approach...
and anybody who learns anything positive about this disease, we're going come and share it...
if you have anything that's working for you, we're going to share it."
And I talked about my ideas...
and then we sang a song and...
did a little meditation at the end...
and then went home. And the next day, one of the men called me and said,
"Louise, it's the first time I slept in 3 weeks."
The next week we had 25 people...
and it started to grow, and to grow and grow.
And what it was is, it's a safe place for people who were terrified out-of-their-wits,
to come and not be told they were bad...
not be told there was something wrong with them...
but to take a positive approach.
Within six months...
there were over 90 people in my living room...
and hanging out of the doors and windows, because there was no place to go.
And then we got a gymnasium...
in West Hollywood...
and the next week it was 150 people.
And the next thing we know, we outgrew the gymnasium...
and finally the city of Hollywood gave us a meeting home.
We were having 850 people every week.
People used to call each other up and, "You going to the HayRide tonight?"
So, we became known as the "HayRide".
I wanted to put, this HayRide on tape...
or make a movie or a video...
so that it could go to other groups...
and other groups could see what we were doing.
I'd like you to continue to hold hands.
DOORS OPENING
Those of you who are new and don't know our song...
you'll learn it by next time.
So I discovered then...
it would cost $40,000...
to make a video...
at that time.
And I thought, "Oh my God, we don't have, you know, two!"
But I kept knowing that we were going to make this video...
it would be a good video. It would go out and would go to all these groups.
Those were my affirmations...
and I just kept saying them.
And then somebody came up to me and he was a director...
and he wanted to direct this thing.
And I said, "Wonderful!"
And then the offshoot of that was, that he said,
"Alright, let me have, give me your foundation number."
And I said, "I don't have a foundation!"
And he said, "Oh okay, I'll have my accountant set one up for you."
And out of all that, I got a foundation...
which I have till today.
And it's what I call...
"give-away money."
Whatever money comes in to that foundation is given away.
But anyway, we made this wonderful video, called "Doors Opening" about...
the group that we had at that time.
This is the first time I've been to your group.
Okay, welcome.
Six weeks ago...
I found out that...
I had...
a malignant tumor in my lymph system.
Four weeks ago, I found out that it had spread substantially...
and two days ago...
I found out that I have AIDS.
I need to hear a lot of what...
all of you are saying. And there's a lot of people in this room that are friends of mine.
I've been just real petrified to bring this out and to talk about it.
I've been having real symptoms. I have doctors and T-cell panels to back it up...
and even bone marrow biopsies to back it up and all these stuff...
and I've been trying to figure out what am I dying of.
Today I just want to, I want to find out...
what I am living for, and not what I'm dying of.
When you talk, Tom, you talk for a lot of people.
You are not the only person.
And you know the thing is that, if you're looking for a savior...
and I know a lot of people here are looking for a savior...
the place to look, is right here in the mirror.
Right here, honey.
This is the savior that you're looking for.
What you want to say to him?
You know, one of the things that I would love to do in this world, if I could...
was to see that everybody was fed,
and clothed, and housed,
and loved.
And had fulfilling work...
and fulfilling creativity.
I think that would be wonderful.
But it's not that easy to do the whole world.
However, if I can do one individual at a time...
when you have made your changes...
you will automatically change people around you...
because of the person that you are.
You will teach by example.
I don't heal anybody.
That's not what I do.
I just provide a space...
where we can uncover how absolutely wonderful we are.
And many people find that they are able to heal themselves.
And this is very heart-warming to all of us.
I was on the Phil Donahue Show...
and the Oprah show.
and...
they both came out in the same week...
and on that week...
the Hay House went bananas.
I mean, the phones were ringing unbelievably.
And I wound up, my book "You Can Heal Your Life"...
wound up on the bestseller list for 13 weeks.
And it's never been the same since.
Life just exploded this out...
and...
the rest is history.
Louise is the pioneer.
She's the leader. She's the forerunner...
of what? Of the fact...
that consciousness creates reality.
Consciousness is real.
Consciousness is not some airy-fairy baloney thing.
Consciousness obeys the laws of physics.
She said,
"Bless and prosper everyone around you."
"Bless and prosper yourself."
And that's...
so deep.
Because...
you know, when you love yourself...
you love others...
and what that is about, is the fact that...
everything in the outside world is within us.
And our molecules of emotion...
they are not just within ourselves running our own body...
but they are vibrations...
joining all of us.
I AM WILLING TO FORGIVE
Forgiveness of myself and others releases me from the past.
Forgiveness is the answer to almost every problem.
Forgiveness is a gift to myself.
I forgive and I set myself free.
My greatest accomplishment of my life...
was my ability to...
forgive...
my own father...
who walked out on our whole family, when we were just oh...
on a woman with three children under the age of 4.
I very often meditate and pray to him...
and thank him...
for coming in to the world...
and teaching the most important lesson I had to learn...
on this planet...
which was how to forgive.
Mark Twain had a wonderful quote. He said,
"Forgiveness is the fragrance...
that the violet sheds...
on the heel that has crushed it."
And I have an image of that.
What I call "organic forgiveness"
is...
a very...
great, useful thing. And that is...
when the person organically...
has an experience of forgiveness...
after claiming responsibility for all of their feelings.
So when I finally I get in touch with,
"Oh, I feel hurt...
but that's inside me...
it's not like you're doing it to me."
That breeds organic forgiveness.
When the person can claim responsibility for the things inside themselves...
that is a sign that...
they're in touch with their own vibrational nature.
They are in touch with the forces of creation.
A very good thing to do, when you're feeling less than happy...
is to look at it, or whoever it is, or whatever it is...
and take a notebook and write the person's name or the situation...
and say, "What is it that I'm thinking about you...
that I'm using as my excuse to not allow myself to be who I really am?"
When you say "What are you doing that's making me unhappy?"
You are giving them all of the power, because they have to do something different to make you happy.
It's a very conditional love you're living, a very conditional 'happiness'.
Once you identify that and then think...
the thought that who you really are would think...
now, happiness is easy.
Coming into 'alignment' is easy.
It's just a matter of...
caring...
about how are you feel...
and practising feeling good.
Whenever you have a conflict...
of any kind, in any relationship, whenever you have a conflict...
that the person who is willing to be...
of Tao, of God, of sort...
is the one who will...
practise forgiveness...
or will go to the person that they have a conflict with...
and bring love to it.
The person who lives the life of a higher consciousness...
is the person who says, "I end all conflicts on love."
I forgive and I set myself free.
I forgive and I...
THE HIDDEN TREASURE AT THE CENTER OF YOURSELF
In the early days, when I worked with people...
I used to fix this problem and fix that problem...
and you'd have this health thing...
and we'd worked on that, and we'd worked on this.
And one day...
I discovered, much to my amazement...
that if I would help people learn to love themselves...
to really accept themselves as they are...
we didn't have to work around problems...
because it was almost like a miracle.
Everything seem to fall away...
all the stuff that was in the way, and all the stuff that wasn't working.
I got this book by Louise Hay, and I start reading the book.
and...
her whole emphasis was not on dealing with the disease so much...
but dealing with yourself.
And dealing with...
"Do you love yourself?"
And I went through all the little exercises that she had.
I'm doing the daily affirmations.
And what I realized that at 43 years old, I've had never learned how to love myself.
I remembered lots of times I'd ask people, "Well, what is really wrong with you?"
"What have you done that's so terrible that you are not acceptable to yourself?"
And I never, ever, ever got an answer that made any sense.
You know, they might say something like, "Well, I'm too fat."
Well, so...?
As you know...
I was very self-critical.
I think women go through this whole thing where...
it doesn't matter how other people tell you, you look.
It matters how you feel you look good, and you look in the mirror, and I used to...
look at myself in the mirror and I would see my flaws.
I would see the things about myself that I wanted to change.
When we talk about loving yourself...
a lot of people think that's vanity...
but it isn't really. It has nothing to do with that.
If you can look in the mirror.
Just simple things...
like looking in the mirror, in your own eyes and say...
"I love you."
"I really, really love you!"
And it helps, if you use your name...
"Louise, I love you. I really love you."
It gets to that 'little child' inside...
that has been rejected for so long.
And it breaks open, sort of a dam...
or a door, or whatever you want to call it.
And it's like...
little miracles start to happen.
Lots of little good things happen.
You know, all the work I did...
with what she taught me...
within 3 months, the cancer was gone.
I'm clear now and...
I feel fabulous!
You can recognize that you are a being that has self-worth...
then you start to treat yourself differently.
And I think that's what's so very important about loving yourself.
If you stop beating yourself up, you stop making yourself wrong...
you stop talking about how awful you are.
And you start to treat yourself with a certain amount of respect.
And this makes an enormous difference.
Because what you give out in life...
is what comes back to you.
The fastest journey...
to loving oneself...
is to look for things to appreciate...
everywhere you look.
Because if you can find something to appreciate in that flower...
you're not in that moment...
of vibrational discord to loving yourself.
If you can find appreciation in that child's face...
or in the beauty of a friend.
as you find things to appreciate...
the vibration of appreciation and the vibration of love...
are identical vibrations.
I LOVE AND ACCEPT MYSELF
Deep in the center of me...
flows an infinite wellspring of love.
Love fills my whole being and radiates out from me in all directions...
returning to me multiplied.
I give and receive more love every day...
and the supply is endless.
I love myself...
therefore I take loving care of my body.
I love myself...
therefore I provide for myself a comfortable home.
I love myself...
therefore I work at a job that I truly enjoy doing.
I love myself...
therefore I behave and think in a loving way to all people.
I love myself...
therefore I forgive and totally release the past.
I love myself...
therefore I live in the now, experiencing each moment as good...
and knowing my future is bright, and joyous, and secure...
for I am a beloved child of the universe.
And the universe lovingly takes care of me.
Now and forevermore.
I love you.
I really love you.
The path of change is a lifelong process.
As you go farther along the path...
you begin to see one miracle after another.
Learning to stay open and accept those miracles...
is one of the most important stages of *your* growth.
LEARNING TO ACCEPT WITH GRATITUDE
No gardener is ever going to go out into a garden...
and say,
"Give me some vegetables, and then maybe I'll water you."
You know, that's not the way manifestation occurs.
What you do is, you go out and you tend to the vegetables...
and you water them. And then...
the harvest comes.
So if you're giving out a feeling of,
"I'm okay, I'm good enough as I am...
and I'm acceptable, and I love life, and I love me."
and you start having gratitude for yourself and for life.
Then life treats you differently.
Because you are having a different vibration that you're giving out and getting back.
And that's when things really start to flow.
What was interesting, the challenge for me...
was that I thought there was limits to how far you could take this.
And I have to credit Louise Hay, as the person who opened my eyes...
that it's unlimited. She did it on her own...
a woman publisher...
who has changed millions of lives worldwide.
Her house, overlooking the ocean, and her organic garden and her beautiful koi pond...
to me were just physical representations of heaven -on-earth that she made with her own thoughts.
No one inspires someone by being sick, or broke, or poor.
If you want to help someone, you let it shine.
You become that beacon on the hill.
The universe loves grateful people.
The more grateful you are, the more you get
to be grateful about.
It's that simple.
Life is really very simple. We make it enormously complicated.
But it doesn't have to be.
We all go through an evolutionary process in our growth...
where we start out wishing and hoping and believing that the universe is like Santa Claus...
and all you have to do is to write your list up, and you get what you want.
But there is a commitment to consciousness...
and a commitment to action...
that's necessary in order to be able to manifest the things that we affirm or we intend.
When I was wishy-washy about wanting a soulmate...
I got wishy-washy results.
I got, "This guy writes poetry, this guy has a good job."
So put them together, I got a soulmate.
But when I got clear...
right away, it happened.
Nobody in the history of my family, that I know of...
has ever had a successful relationship.
I realized that it would be breaking absolutely radical new ground...
if I was able to create a relationship that works.
That that would be an...
unthinkable thing to do.
And what better thing to make happen, you know...
than something completely unthinkable.
And, so I...
designed what I wanted in a close relationship in my mind.
Honesty...
a relationship where both of us were free to pursue our creativity, our creative callings...
and that each of us took full responsibility for our lives.
So that we didn't get into blaming each other.
From that moment it only took a month...
until Katie came into my life.
And basically set the tone for our whole last 27 years together.
I have an intention that says,
"I want to meet...
a partner that I love...
I want to have a relationship that's meaningful to me."
But then the next question I ask myself is,
"How do I need to grow and evolve in order to become that partner?"
so that I can attract that partner to me.
All my relationships are harmonious.
I'm deeply fulfilled by all that I do.
Every experience is a success.
I deserve the best and I accept it now.
I listen with love my body's messages.
I am healthy, whole and complete.
I express gratitude for all the good in my life.
Each day brings wonderful, new surprises.
Everything that everyone wants...
whether it is a material object...
a state of being...
a relationship...
a pile of money, a circumstance, an event...
Every single thing, without exception...
that you have ever wanted or ever will want...
is because you think you will feel better into having them.
So...
if you will let your primary intention be, to feel good...
you will work all of the wrinkles out of this...
evolving journey that you're upon.
This is how it has work for me.
Every time I've visualized or affirmed...
I get this inner road map given to me...
in the form of gut feelings...
that are repetitive that urge me to take action...
or a vision.
I was married to a man who...
decided to control me by telling me how awful I was.
And I believed him for a long time...
and my self-esteem just plummeted.
I didn't think that I could do anything in the world except for being a wonderful mother to my 2 sons...
which I think is an important purpose.
But there was something more...
I would pray all the time, "Tell me my life purpose."
I kept getting these visions to go give speeches...
and I didn't know how to do it.
Because what could I, this person who didn't have any confidence, possibly teach anyone?
What I later learned was that we don't have to worry about how...
to put our visions or dreams into reality.
All we have to do is follow the guidance, that we get one step at a time.
It is very common for us to overwhelm ourselves, to frighten ourselves...
by thinking about the end results. It's so big!
Here I am, as somebody who wants to write a book...
"Oh my God, how am I going to write a bestseller?"
There are things you need to learn between A and Z...
that you can't complete Z until you learn them.
Overcoming self-doubt, for example, is one of those things.
And so that's why you take step B...
because maybe you just have a little bit of self-doubt about...
going to the bookstore to buy that book on writing a book proposal.
It's not enough just to ask, it's not enough just to have positive thoughts.
You got to follow the guidance you get as a result.
Sometimes people tell me that they feel like their prayers are being ignored.
Because the universe gives us little baby steps, one step at a time.
It's often unrecognized when you're told to go...
read a book, take a class, call someone, write a letter.
But if we do step A, then we're given the next set of instructions...
step B, then we're given the next set of instructions...
step C, and it takes a step-by-step to where we are going.
As your desire is moving, and you are moving in the direction of it...
you feel the ease of that.
It is only when you turn in opposition, that you feel the resistance of all that.
I began in...
in my bedroom literally in Santa Monica...
with my 90-year old, almost blind and almost deaf mother...
who lived with me at that time.
She would helped me...
mail the books, and things like that.
It was a very, very small operation...
we were just doing what could.
And we are now in 35 different languages...
in 30 countries.
You know, it's very interesting to me...
that ever since I put my foot on the spiritual pathway...
it is as though I've had nothing to do with my life.
Life has taken over and said, "You will do this, you will go here...
this will happen, this will happen, this will happen."
I just do what's in front of me...
from the very beginning. We answer the telephone, we open the mail...
and did what was in front of us, and things kept growing and growing and growing.
My vision was, "How can I help the people?
How can I help people?"
This is my life.
This is really my life.
To me, I think enlightenment is...
letting go of all the things we believe...
that are not benefitting us in life...
or that are barriers to our life...
to the good things in life.
And to release them, one by one and to think,
"I don't have to believe that anymore."
or, "Do I want to believe that anymore?"
And making a conscious choice.
It feels like what surrender feels like...
when you've been so attached to an outcome, and you finally let go.
And you feel this deep sense of relief...
in knowing that, "You know what, the cards are going to fall the way they are going to fall...
and I have the ability to handle whatever happens.
It feels like awe.
There's just this powerful knowing...
that you are not alone.
So we can give it a lot of different names...
but the key is that, we are...
I believe, much greater than we've been led to believe in the past.
And I think that, that's where the healing really begins...
in us, understanding...
and accepting...
that power in our lives.
You cannot fake your point of attraction, can you?
It is what it is.
And everything in the universe is reflecting it back to you.
I have...
great gifts.
I have an incredible life...
but I've had a few problems.
I have a little bit of a back problem...
I fall asleep in a weird way.
But I have been given incredible opportunities.
It all began with reaching out for that book...
with Louise Hay, "You Can Heal Your Life."
I follow my inner 'ding'...
what I call my inner 'ding', yes.
Well, it is that feeling, your instinct.
It's an instinct thing and it either feels right or doesn't.
I follow my inner 'ding'.
Excuse me.
Do you know which path goes to the end of the beach?
Yah, you have to turn around and go...
Do you know what? I'm actually going down there, if you want me to show you?
Thanks.
I am who I am, and I just feel like I'm never going to be good enough.
I am willing to change.
What you think...
and what you believe...
is what will come true for you.
Your thoughts create your life.
It's that simple.
And when we can get that...
we can make enormous changes.
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